PQ

can i ask you a personal question?

the answer is no, i can't, because there's no safe way to do so; not the question i was going to ask you anyway. typical for me in this chapter, i didn't think it through. when do i ever think things through before saying them to you? only immediately after i realize i just said something to you without thinking it through, and then i emotionally over-react and retreat. rinse, repeat.

you know what though, i'm not even sure i could've asked it if everything were totally safe, because as i try to analyze the question itself, it just falls apart. what does that even mean?! i was going to ask you something about how much i should worry when you post things about --

oh. now i remember. talking to you scrambled my brain but now we're not texting so i can think again.

thanks Hypo. 'preciate ya!  :P

p.s. i hate you because i wish you didn't have to exist.