spotify

as i shuffle through my playlist[s], i come to the stunning realization that it feels like i'm breaking up with someone.

this is just one of the many areas of my life that you've shaped and formed... just one of the many ways you have shaped me. sharing music might be a casual thing for some, but when someone gives me an artist or even a single track that moves me, that person is leaving a permanent fingerprint on my mind and heart. it's like smell is for most people: an instant connection that can take me years into the past, to the same feeling i felt then (the same both in quality and in quantity).

so alexi murdoch, the jennys, even nickel creek (which i knew of before you, but formed a new connection with through you)-- they all draw me back to you, as i'm trying to walk away from you.

so now i am angry, because i can't even listen to my favorite music without feeling like a part of me is being ripped away.