angels, may you be entertained

Father

i am grateful for the altogether good and lovely things i have encountered because of Your grace and involvement in my life. i see that the boundary lines have indeed fallen for me in pleasant places, and this confuses me because i do not see how i can be trusted with these blessings.

and perhaps i should not always be trusted with all of them.

i shake my head and bow in wonder when i consider my friendships, and how much i have been given. i am particularly in awe of Your daughter Danica and the ways she has made my life unquantifiably better.

i think i must give this up in my heart and mind if i am to keep from clutching it too tightly. i feel that i'm suffocating it, or being suffocated by it, or both. maybe it's better that i plan to leave it behind. maybe it's better that i acknowledge my suspicion that she is outgrowing our friendship. maybe it's a good idea to let it pass.

i will work on doing that, internally. i will prepare for it and thereby perhaps prevent some of the useless and foolish floundering that i've been doing so far.

please help me do wise things. please continue to help Danica grow in strength and wellness. please help me find Your will and match mine to it. please help Danica to feel confident in herself without losing any of her humility. please help me manage my feelings. please give Danica many opportunities to find the boundary lines falling for her in pleasant places.

please help me to be selfless like You, so that i can responsibly, willingly yield to You the wondrous and rare blessings to which i have so desperately clung.

amen