plans

tonight i spoke with Jerad again about disclosure. he seems to finally be warming up to it.

on the our-friendship front, though, things are just getting weirder and more distant, i feel. i am almost not sorry for going snerberderng without you; but maybe it was actually an accidentally helpful move on my part.

i feel you drifting away. i am sort of beginning to truly accept that.

that said... i miss you and love you so much. i'm so sorry and so grateful. i'm so wishful and not very hopeful. i am praying God leads me down paths that are best for you and for His plans.

i miss you and love you so much again. all the time. i mostly don't care to break that down anymore. it's breaking me down to live this way so eff it.

i miss and love you.