"it's called an umlaut."
okay colleege student... :P
so i did it. i followed my own advice, plus Jerad's, plus the VUSC community's: i instituted a long-overdue DTR. its one-sided-ness is unfortunate but necessary. i mangled my words on their way out, even though i actually DID plan what to say to you this time, sort of. but the request is delivered nonetheless, and now i await my Destinica.
what do i want?
to be forever bound by the constraints put upon our friendship by you. that's like my favorite thing ever.
okay but seriously: i don't want to battle this anymore. i don't want to juggle a dozen feelings every time i get a text message that MIGHT be from you. i don't want to say stupid shtee without even thinking about it first. (at least let me be stupid on purpose!)
i sense the time drawing nearer where i will have to claim that retiring this blog is the best thing, but then continue posting in it anyway as a way of dealing with my being in love with someone who isn't in love with me. i guess sooner is better than later.
wah wah wah. i should sleep.
i miss you terribly. sleep well forever-friend-ica.
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