i don't really know what to say right now. i'm roiling with a hundred thoughts and feelings that i cannot identify or express; and even if i could, i'd feel boxed in, unable to share any of them with you.
what i know for sure is that i miss you in a very chaotic, frustrated, tremulous way right now, and i have no idea how i am going to deal with this. now, as before, you are too much for me to take in. i might burst at the seams.
help
